Inactivity+Tumblr

Wow, I haven't been on here in so long. I am so sorry about that, guys. It's just like... I haven't really been inspired lately to write anything. Also, I've been on other websites. I'm a LOT more active on my Tumblr. If you knew my old Tumblr, I have deleted that one. The one I use now is www.twistofthemist.tumblr.com so, mostly if you don't see me on here, I'm usually on that.

Other than that, I've been a bit.. stressed, I guess? I don't know if that's the word. Throughout most of this semester, I've had to deal with my Spanish teacher. Here is what has been happening:

• In beginning of semester, she was supposed to give us a work packet. She gave it to us a week before it was due. As a result, I worked my ass off for that.
• At Parent Teacher Conferences, she said she wouldn't count it because not many people did it
• In beginning of semester, she was showing us too many movies. As in, we weren't learning anything.
• She wasn't getting her students' names right. She kept calling me by my mother's name.
• A friend and I reported her to an assistant principal.
• She's been absent up to fifteen times this semester alone.
• She implies that her students are idiots
• I was out on March 27th, and I had done the work I needed to make-up for that day. It took almost a MONTH to grade it.
• The principals have been calling so many of us to the office to talk about her and the grade issue
• We don't get graded work back.
• I'm the only one she moves back if I sit somewhere else.

This isn't all that's been happening with me. See like.. something has been building up. Last semester, I had only three classes with my best friend, and we have the same homeroom. Now, we have every class together, homeroom, x-time, and lunch. I'm a more... shy person. She's more of a social butterfly. Here's what has happened since this school year, but has started taking its toll on me, now. This is what she has been doing to me, and what she has done:

• She made my self-confidence drop drastically
• She made my self-esteem lower
• She took friends of mine, leaving me invisible.
• She is what triggers my suicidal thoughts
• She triggers my thoughts about self-harm
• She is why I have had bruises all over my body, because she triggered the self-harm.
• The suicidal thoughts are almost daily, because of her.
• She has made me think: "No one would care if I died. Everyone is too involved with her."
• I didn't go to school on March 27th, because I woke up, crying hysterically. I couldn't breathe. I had racing thoughts about suicide and self-harm. I felt so scared of going to school that day, because I knew I'd end up being alone at school, and only be able to stay in a bathroom stall, crying.
• She says comments like "Look! I've been working out!" and guess what. It brings me down, because my stomach isn't flat. My thighs aren't toned like I want them to be. She constantly makes me feel like the ugliest being in the world.

Needless to say, that combined with Spanish has been... bad for me lately. Normally, I don't wish bad things on people. I just wish she'd get caught with her weed and get sent to Alternative School. Then, I could be so happy. Right now, I'm in the process of getting away from her. I have found out that some of my own friends don't like her either. They're there for me, and I'm so happy because of that. Just thought I'd tell you guys about what's been going on.